A Man Who Grows Up by Imaginaries

In this post, I wanna tell a part of major story of my life. It was not so unpleasant but I am actually glad I was taught this way, and I am glad some of my family taken small part of who I become.

The story was actually going back to when I was 11 years old. I lived in secluded "friendly" communities that time. I was like a Prince of not sure where I should put myself into. Back then, I was a timid quite boy who likes to talk to any races or ages, I never thought about my race or how old I was. All I know, just... whoever helps me, I would talk to them.

When I was 11, my brother who just returned from overseas study, introduced a knowledge of technology (a.k.a Computer). That time, I was thrilled, I was hunger of new piece of tech he bought, but I realized now, I learned them back then in a wrong way. And I couldn't realized that until at the age of 28. Can you believe it ? All those time I was cheated, lied, whatever I did to "learn in a wrong way" to get a hands on "wrong knowledge".

Until around at the age of 30, I started to realize I was in a very wrong passion. Tried my best since then to steer sideways before I gone berserk. But, it's a little bit too late for me to harness my "actual" passion. I'd like to learn about Social Science and anything close to advance technologies, but when I try to study them in online courses, I was "blank", hard to getting new knowledge that I failed to study in the past !

I am now, could only learn things that I acquired by auto-deduct from past life, although it was not quite perfect. Even all these posts in English, I'm not quite sure I am using the right grammar.

Anyway, after realization of how dumb I am, turns out I also realized that, whole of my 30 years back then, I was only taught very few things from my family. Being Open-Minded and Take Whoever's skills to gain One Knowledge. So, in other word, doing friendship to take advantage. It is very wrong. And since then I completely suck in making friends, and it is still suck by now. But I delete the "taking advantage" part and change them into "I am an introvert who don't deserve making friends, because I am and will always be a worst friend"

But does this mean, I couldn't learn anything ? It's not. Thanks for some "advantaged friends" in the past, I develop and steered the "wrong passions" into new path of getting knowledge from "unsociable sources", Media. By media here means Movie, Talk Show, Youtube, News, TV Shows. I know, maybe many of you gotta say "Whoa man that is so lame !", "You study from imagination things, what the f*ck ?!"

To tell you the truth, it wasn't easy, but I managed to separate them from real life. And gain knowledge from that fact. In my past, I was likely to compare people, but, with this "bad habit", I use them to compare this "imaginary life" with "real life", so with that said I have a bigger picture to comprehend, I study that "imagine life" could actually "a fruit that hasn't been born" of real life.

So, because of this, I keep studying whenever I watch all of those (Movie, Talk Show, Youtube, News, TV Shows, etc). I never seeing them as Fun things that you can throw in the garbage after watch, I see them as new knowledge that I could giving to those people who out of ideas. So basically, I am a man with never run out of solution, because I never never ever limit myself of what real life already given to us.

Maybe a lot of people think what I'm doing is, "what a load of crap" or "oh ho, now we found ourselves a Scientist 'in the wind' with non-proof-able fact". And I say, yes, I learned some of them I admit, no proof, but it is not impossible. I just hope that, for every human on Earth, never limit yourself's knowledge by reality. Knowledge is Vast and broad out there, fiction and non-fiction. Although in my case, it is pretty much, I could only share what I know from "the sources", but I believe for those who are not "late". Don't let reality limit your knowledge to prevent Crisis we are facing now in the world.